asking Mark to guest blog about Santa Barbara....

The trip to Santa Barbara was like something out of a Woody Allen movie. Surrounded by the intellectual elite and their understated money.
Mark and I also mused that it was a bit like a 'Sex and the City' episode. Being invited up to a glamorous beach dinner/sleepover last minute like that. Walking along the beach at midnight, avoiding the millions of sand crabs by flashlight after Mark's epic game of scrabble.
In the morning, we walked the beach again and were able to see more clearly the beautiful houses big and small, of all styles that lined the beach. We fantasized which one would be Mark's if he had a few million dollars for such a prize.

But it occurs to me that it would be fun to hear HIS point of view on this story - so I am doing something as a first, and asking him to 'guest blog' about this trip we both took - infuse HIS biting humor, etc.

If you have a moment - please comment here and help me to persuade him!!!
And THANK YOU all again for reading!!!!

day 3....already screwed it up.

OK. Last night's writer's group thing was really fun. Instead of uptight, West-side jerk-balls - the writers were shockingly sweet. AND the actors. So, I blew the whole raw food thing by going out for pizza and beer afterwards. Oh well. Murphy's law.

Getting ready to head up to Santa Barbara with my gay BFF, Mark. Which is fun because this Texan with the beach house there has a 'gay Mark' of his own - who is also a decorator (mine's art dept.!)I have my materials ready - and I'm excited about the prospect of getting this guy to invest in one of the best scripts I've ever read.

I am also inspired to roll up my sleeves and get back into some of the tougher stories for my blog. There's no point in being worried about things that haven't happened yet. I fear for this country. Now more than I ever have. But I keep trying to remind myself that I'll have enough cash (even in a fire sale scenario) to flee this country and try another for a while.Seriously thinking about taking my 13 year old son on a trip around the world for a year.

day 2, Storm approaching.....

This is hard.
Going to farmer's market in a minute and think it will be easier when I am better prepared. Hard to fall asleep when you're hungry. Or at least it is for me.

Sophie is back from the East Coast. She is being mean to me.Will check back in soon.

OK. Stocked up on fruits and veg so I won't feel so starving and hopefully can stick with this.
Have been invited to a fairly exclusive writer's/actor's group tonight and I'm REAL excited about it. (maybe this could become a toe back in?) - then tomorrow, Mark and I are driving up to Santa Barbara to hopefully speak with a super cool and super WEALTHY Texan who might be interested in movie investing.....things are getting interesting around here.

Meanwhile - I am watching the news and the President's address to the nation biting my nails (not literally....I'm not a nail biter) because this DEBT CEILING HOSTAGE MOVE that the crazy Tea Baggers are pulling - will not ONLY affect millions of Americans and American companies - it will directly affect ME. In a VERY BAD WAY if it doesn't get raised on time! My timing for possibly selling my house is August 4. And NO ONE is going to want to buy if interest rates shoot up the way ALL the economists say they will if the Baggers continue this dangerous game. I am possibly SO SCREWED. It feels like a giant storm is brewing and I know the exact date it will land. August 4th. And that's real,real soon.

dinner - day 1.

I am STARVING. Raw broccoli sounding pretty good. Funny how your brain ONLY thinks of food when you're starving - all of my other neurotic and deep thoughts pushed aside. Like a 14 year old boy thinks about sex. Remember how THAT was , all of you BOYS!!????? Don't lie.

OK. Tomorrow is the farmer's market - after that I'll be good. Tonight - raw broccoli and a mango,orange juice concoction. YUMMMMMM....right???? ....convincing myself it WILL be yummy. Going to look at expert, Kristan Andrew's website now. I have consumed 4 glasses of water with lime juice. And some unsweetened cranberry juice (which tastes AWFUL!!! I'm not going to LIE to you here! What would the point be!!!???)

I want SEX. And maybe a cigarette. Hope none of my kids are reading this. Of course they aren't! If I start sounding loopy - it's because I'm SO FUCKING HUNGRY!!!!!!

getting serious about things...(raw food cleanse - day 1)

Don't worry - I'm not going to get explicit about gross things here. And hopefully I won't bore you with just talking about what I'm eating, either. But a lot of people around me are doing this, or asking about it - so I'll just weave it into the other stuff, I figure.

First of all, I have been drinking WAYYYYY too much! Ask ANYONE. Especially Mark. Second of all, I think I've been doing this sort of self punishment thing for the last year. Really it started when I realized that my one and only soul- mate on this earth is married to someone else, that that was a path NOT taken, and I will never be with him again, maybe never even SEE him again, and NO ONE compares to him. No one. Life will go on. I will have sex a few more times (I hope!) and maybe some fun romantic adventures are around the corner still for me - but TRUE LOVE. That rarest of things that some people NEVER find - I had it. It's still alive. It's OUT THERE and lives in another human's GORGEOUS body, and I CAN'T HAVE IT.

What EVER. Time for me to shake out of this year long mope and remember how fun it is and nice it is to have a body and brain that you're friends with. I HAD the real thing. The REAL DEAL, baby. And so what if it was super short on a time -line? As I myself JUST SAID - some people NEVER experience that.So, get over yourself, Jennifer, and get SERIOUS.

Starting with getting all of this toxic sugar and booze OUT,OUT,OUT!!!
And starting tomorrow with yoga!!! (I LOVE yoga!!)

Day 1 : starting off well, I think. Have already cheated by trying one bite of the cookies I just made for Soph (that girl needs a few calories right now!) - they are delicious. Why did I need to do that? How many batches of cookies have I made in my lifetime? HUNDREDS!
Otherwise - good.
Made a salad from freshly grown Boston lettuce, tomatoes I grew, kalamata olives, hearts of palm, artichoke hearts, and apple cider vinaigrette. Sprinkle a few pieces of shaved parmesan on top if you wish to be decadent (yum!)

Apple cider vinaigrette : 1/4 cup olive oil, 1/8 cup apple cider vinegar, dash salt, 1/2 teaspoon dijon mustard (I can't LIVE without dijon mustard!),one fat garlic clove - squeeze it through garlic press,squeeze of lemon or lime - adjust to taste!

Apple cider vinegar is supposed to be very good for you, but if it's just TOO tart for your taste buds - add a little honey, OR substitute orange muscat champagne vinegar (at trader Joe's and NOT expensive - it only TASTES expensive!) Bon Appetit!!